冷莫凡

Growing up is a painful thing. Life is full of dangers and bumps, and even the transformation of rebirth requires blood, tears, scars, and then seeing water as water, casually saying "the weather is cool in autumn."
Young Li Bing's world was very simple. The people around him were all loved ones. He may believe that there is righteousness in the world, and that he has the responsibility and ability to witness the world becoming more beautiful. So he sent Qiu Qingzhi away. His physical body may be inadequate, and it may be difficult to achieve in his lifetime, but his soul is not limited to one body. He couldn't imagine that there would be sandstorms outside, enough to swallow people up.
"Leaving the capital. Snow. Not seeing old friends." These few words that passed by, at this moment, recalled the tragedy. On that snowy day, he was probably desperate, the once innocent Li Bing was indeed dead.
The appearance of Chen Shi and the people from Mingjing Hall is crucial, symbolizing the most romantic, representing a heart that is pure and capable of trust and love. It's like when the oil is about to run out, suddenly there is firewood coming closer, grasping the last glimmer of light, and the fire can then be passed on and reignited. Li Bing is reborn because of this.

This drama is romantic, but in fact, the reality is also very cruel. "Do good deeds without asking for rewards." Li Bing wrote down this realization after looking back on the past. It was not until the mist cleared that I realized how much pain was digested in this realization.
Since everything in the world is unpredictable, there is no regret or guilt. He has died once, but he can still live. In order not to disappoint the past, in order to live up to the warmth that still covers him.

Only Qiu Qingzhi died with him in that year. Their souls merged, and they were supposed to stand tall in the world, but in the end, they withered together, exhausted.
Qiu Qingzhi was born with pride and couldn't forgive himself, let alone make a second mistake. After that day, he was nothing more than a walking corpse, until he threw himself into the blade, it is better to say that everything is Qiu Qingzhi's punishment to himself. Qiu Qingzhi told Li Bing that he was useless. Even when acting, Qiu Qingzhi still spoke almost without violating his heart. On the contrary, Li Bing poured out all his grievances and grievances to Qiu Qingzhi. What's cruel about Qiu Qingzhi is that he knows that a piece of Li Bing's heart still overlaps with his own, yet he still self-inflicts wounds without leaving any room.
Giving the medicine bag to Li Bing was Qiu Qingzhi's apology, giving each other at least an explanation. Then he can finally fall down, I think it's because Qiu Qingzhi knows that Li Bing is different from himself, his heart is not numb, although he has set up defenses, he still dares to open a gap, allowing the fresh breeze to come in and out.

That warmth led by Chen Shi allowed Li Bing to breathe smoothly after a long absence.
I feel that the character of Chen Shi should originally be similar to Haruta in the real estate version of "Ossan's Love" ¹. Pure and kind, even when encountering tigers and wolves, he responds with love, thus being able to gather support. I think it's interesting how Chen Shi gathers everyone to break through, love is the most grand force in the universe. The essence of love is trust. Chen Shi loves people, so he is loved.
However, the narrative perspective of the story is not focused enough, the characterization is limited, so it is not convincing enough like Haruta's vividness in "Ossan's Love".
Fortunately, each actor in this drama has performed well. I think Zhou Qi's little brother has a tough appearance, but he can interpret the gentle and warm taste of Chen Shi, which is commendable. Another actor playing two roles, Chen Jiu, has a cold temperament, and he can grasp both appearances without confusion, showing a certain level of skill.

I noticed that there are many contrasts in the drama, such as Chen Jiu and Chen Shi, as well as Yizhihua and Li Bing, and Lai Zhongshu and Qiu Qingzhi; life is bitter, and love is difficult. In the frosty wind and rain, one often has to be very, very lucky to meet a piece of charcoal, and one has to be very, very hard to believe that there is still a chance to pick up the unburned charcoal and give a small part to the frozen person.
The story is clearly painful and tragic, but it is wrapped in a light and cheerful image. I think it can also be seen as a metaphor: laughter is a manifestation of love. And people can laugh, and they can laugh. If they forget, they encourage themselves to remember.

What Li Bing deserves is to laugh happily from the bottom of his heart. Li Bing is a character that makes me feel very sad. Regardless of which stage, there are always unavoidable regrets in his life.
I feel sorry for Li Bing, and I feel sorry for Ding Er, who must fully empathize with Li Bing's emotions. The roles he has played have carried a lot of sadness, and he has shared the burden of those unbearable weights with those characters. Even though he is good at expressing grief, or rather, because he is so good at interpreting sorrow and melancholy, I am especially reluctant. On the contrary, I think, why not challenge a silly character who laughs and acts foolishly, different challenges, new aspects of learning, and experiencing happiness.

The song "How Can You Bear to Make Me Sad" fits Li Bing's state of mind so well. Fortunately, I am old enough now and have learned to calm myself down, avoiding the pain that "Lan Yu" caused me back then, which was deeply imprinted in my bones and deeply hurt my heart.
I do not interpret the relationship between Li Bing and the people around him based on specific interpersonal boundaries, what I see is only love itself. I have always believed that love cannot—or needs to—be classified, it is only a difference in depth, just like love and sex are not related, they have their own roles. Love is not a narrow definition, nor does it need to fit into a framework, only the people involved can interpret it.
I just want to bless Li Bing, who has gone through all of this, to be enveloped by more love in the future and truly be happy.

Recently, I heard a song that I really like, the lyrics are called "Alaska Bay". I think Qiu Qingzhi's heart probably hides similar words.
Although this character is too stubborn, but I just really like twisted characters...
Zhe Ming's understanding of the character is also very thorough, delicate, and gives Qiu Qingzhi vivid flesh and blood. The most memorable scene for me is the moment when Qiu Qingzhi and Li Bing cooperate, pretending to be Xu Hu, and taking off the mask. With the overall context, the aura is extraordinary.

I think the biggest highlight of this drama is that the actors are masters, and when strong meets strong, sparks are created, making the characters shine and appear full. Why not also connect it with the title and extend its meaning: the word "遊" (travel) adds the finishing touch, understanding through interaction.